Andrew Berardini
← WritingObituary · ArtSlant · 23 February 2012

More Love Hours Than Can Ever Be Repaid

The memorial on Tipton Way: “More Love Hours Than Can Ever Be Repaid and the Wages of Sin, Mike Kelley, R.I.P.” painted in red on a white wall, crocheted afghans and stuffed animals gathered beneath

Carport on Tipton Way Near Figueroa

5806 Tipton Way, Los Angeles, CA 90012

Yes, we made that. Together and apart, under a spectral influence.

There was one soul who started it and another and another, all of it combining and agglomerating, collected compassion, unabashed sentimentality, gratitude and grief. Neither elitist nor crass, all at once scruffy and cleansing, soft and hard. A shrine, maybe, even if it enshrined would handily sneer at his affiliation with such roadside divinity.

Not unlike the working class, from which he and many of us come, artists often work with their hands, channeling serpentine thoughts and emotions through the simplicity of the tangible and the visible. They make things. Love and care, desperation and anxiety, grief and suffering are made manifest. Grandmotherly love possibly crochets you a blanket or sews up a sock monkey, a gift of time, hours of the click-click of crochet needles and the familiar song of a Singer sewing machine, the needle beating a rhythm like a hummingbird’s heart. Some people of course just buy things, love, memory, but grief is neither bought nor sold. Wreaths and flowers somehow feel rote. Memorial services with hired MCs more tradition than memory.

One can’t sell a scar, a caress, an epiphany; to ritualize a person is to perhaps reduce them to dumb motions.

This is about class and control, empathy and nostalgia, the darkness creeping always along the edges of modern life marred often by rough-handed capitalism, the way affection and emotion can and cannot be carried by objects, about a democratic access that never stoops to stupid populism.

This is about Mike Kelley, recently suicided. This is about his memorial, the one we made for a hometown hero, a teacher, a friend, a distant inspiration, an unknown quantity spoken about by others with awe, a pugilist, a punk, a poet, now dead.

On Tipton Way in Highland Park, just off Figueroa, friends and fans, neighbors and students, allies and lovers have pierced all the chaff that surrounds the life of a famous artist and in a whitewashed carport for a torn-down house revealed the core beauty and importance of this significant artist. Fame sucks, the onslaught of attention irritates and often destroys the sensitive brilliance that brought it there, an old story. Kelley always despised false biographical readings, so we’ll refrain from one here.

Perhaps there’s no easy narrative, but simply tragedy.

His memorial has taken on the title of two famous works by Kelley, the first of a new era for the artist, called More Love Hours Than Can Ever Be Repaid and The Wages of Sin. It’s a title, doubled together, that sings more truly with each repetition.

On Tipton Way the afghans flap in the breeze, the stuffed animals quietly congregate around the flickering wicks in the mountain of wax. The graffiti feels deeply personal, hand-written, raw and human, sometimes funny, often heartbreaking, the scrawl of yearbooks and diaries.

Though art in its way is a communication, an artist with himself, with his community, with all the art that came before it, with each individual member of an audience. Art is a human stain, evidence of one soul’s struggle that helps give shape and empathy to our struggle: political, aesthetic, intellectual, and emotional.

Unknowingly built, posthumous as it is, the memorial on Tipton Way is Mike Kelley’s final installation, made by him through us, his influence bending our thoughts, guiding our hands, giving a little succor to our own struggle even as his is finally over.